Friday, November 11, 2005
I got this from my daily e-mail of horoscope. I am not much nito this but this time I guess I will believe this... hehehe.. well.... no harm i think..
today is the last day of our trainor's training. I am happy from what I gathered from our Dean regarding our performances in the training. I just hope that there was an evaluation afterwards to assess the whole training which would also establish as to whether the training would be helpful and the trainor who facilitated the training is qualified enough... i know she is but i am looking for something else based from the earlier discussions and at the same time from the objectives of the training...
Tuesday, November 8, 2005
Yes, i am hurt.. devastatedly i am... few minutes ago, i cried.. no... i wept... i wept until my tears ran dry... it was not only about being hurt but being hurt by the person i love most.. i care most.. for a reason that i thought was really a matter of our hearts.. i was wrong... the silence between us which i have been broken to know the real story was because of a wrong information that some people gave to this special person...
my first question was why didn't this person ask me if it was true or not... November 9 is our second year anniversary.... two years of many mixed emotions... combination of different experiences... meeting of various moments... but we stood tall inspite of all those... for i thought trust and love can conquer all.... but i was wrong... trust is on the other side of the road and love is travelling alone on this side of the road... and understanding ang forgiveness are not joing their league..
i am writing this at this moment without any idea what would possibly happen later or hours from now or tomorrow... i do not know and i do not want to think about it...
to you.. i know you are not visiting my blog..
anyway.. Happy 2nd Anniversary....
Sunday, November 6, 2005
so many things have been happening with my life at the moment.... some are tolerable.. some are for my professional growth.. sad that i am not working on with my personal growth too much... diet is not working and i think i grew bigger... i hate it...
it is really difficult to go on a diet and to weigh less if you are surrounded with foods around you.... and people who love to eat.... hopeless case i think...
anyway, i didn't attend the oathtaking for Professional Teachers yesterday. I haven't registered myself yet. Maybe I would do that sometime last week of the month.
Next week, our trainor's training will resume. It will be a continuation of IELTS and we will start with TOEFL and TSE. The week after next, classes resume. I am not yet aware with my schedule. Sad thing i cannot pursue my thesis this semester. I still lack the funds to enrol myself. Likewise, I am not sure yet if the subjects I want to take as my refresher are offered. I hope by next school year, I can complete my Master's degree already.
But I am thinking of starting enrolling myself into another Master's program which is in lined with my profession ( hehehe.. sabi kasi nila pag may borad exam eh the word profession should be used) which is teaching... either Language Teaching or Reading. Still undecided.
Monday, October 10, 2005
I immediately sent messages to my classmates who also passed the Board Exam. Out of maybe ten or nine i texted, only 1 was aware that she passed the examination. With the rest, they are clueless. I am thankful to god for blessin us. Thank you to Saint Claire for hearing our prayers. Well, I strongly believe with the saying " Do your best and God will do the rest"
Thank you to my supportive friends, co-employees, and co-teachers.
Of course, a big thanks to my classmates who were supportive and unselfishly extended their help not only to me but to each member of our circle. To our teachers who challenged us to the limit. Of course, to the millions of teachers who inspired me to follow their footsteps.
hay.. mala-awards night ang speech ko ah.. hehehe
basta thank you.
Saturday, August 6, 2005
my friends, please include me in your prayers.
i badly need it!
Saturday, June 25, 2005
i never expected that things will turn out this way.
i asked for a little blessing,
yet God gave me so much.
i just asked Him to guide me
so i can be stronger
i just whispered to Him to take good care of us
while time and distance is between us
i thank God for making these things
i bet He does not want to see me cry
he might have heard me crying at night
calling your name, wishing you are here beside me
hugging each oth er as what we used to
perhaps, i have to forget crying
but never will i forget about you
in every thing that comes on my way,
there is the goal
we are both aspiring
both of our ways are gearing
towards the fulfillment of our dreams
to be together
after the time and distance we have.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
perhaps they are really in need of a full time instructor. most of the previous applicants wanted a part time stint in the school.
my problem right now is my previous employer. they do not want me to go even i already submitted my resignation letter last May. my last day in office should have been last June 5 2005. but i extended my service due to a certain project.
i have so much to share. so many things to share with you. not only with my new life as an instructor.. oo nga pala, i am happy kasi the dean ranked me as instructor III. i skipped levels 1 and 2 considering that i do not have any teaching experience yet...
i have to keep myself busy. my baby just left the country. i have been crying.. been missing her terribly..
Thursday, June 2, 2005
Review classes will start this Sunday and nine sundays after that. Please pray for me. Last year only 27% of those who took the exams passed. I hope and pray that I will be included to those who will pass this year. Actually, I am eyeing to be at least in the Top 2o of board passers.
Friday, May 27, 2005
since the day you told me that everything is set, i've been denying the sadness in my eyes.. i've been trying to hide the fear i have in my heart... for we are not sure what's store for us at the end of the road.
perhaps, i have been selfish because i have been keeping you. because i do not want to lose you... but this time, i do not want to be selfish anymore.. you will be in my heart as always.. you will be kept in my mind as always... go and follow your dreams.. if heaven will grace us more, we will be seeing each other again.. two years.. three years from now.. i do not know what will happen in between, at any rate, i will rely on your words.. on your promises... that one day soon.. things will be on our side...
Friday, May 20, 2005
daming istorya.. daming mababasa... nice to get into thelives of different people..bukod sa obvious na tsismosa ako.. hehehe... it breaks the monotony in my life...
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Saturday, April 2, 2005
Been doing some research how to make a handmade paper. glad that there are websites about it... saw some wedding invitations made on handmade paper and they really look great.. but handmade paper is really costly.. so i want to try how to make one..
nope, boys and girls, i am not getting married yet... just want to make some handmade paper for some wedding and birthday invitation that I'll be making. I am creating some sample designs for my portfolio... try to compile them for future reference in case there are those who would like to have their invitations made by me... Actually i already made some sample designs created from special paper you can buy in the book stores... i sent some sample designs to this lovely couple who will tie a knot this April... I hope they would choice one among my samples.. well they are on a budget and I have to make some adjustments to it... sayang nga eh... sana natapos ko agad ang mga invitations made from handmade paper para makita rin nila..
Ang tindi ng init sa Pinas!!!!!!! Summer na po!!!!!!!!!!
akala ng eldest sis ko eh nakatakas na naman ang two-year-old son niya.. mabilis kasing tumakbo palabas ng bahay ang mokong na iyon...tawag siya ng tawag sa name ni Tonton... alang sumasagot... tapos napansin niyang medyo naiwang bukas ang pinto ng ref nila.. yeah, you guessed it right.. pumasok sa loob ng ref nila ang pamangkin kong makulit.. since medyo maliit siyang bata... ayun dikit-dikit nya ang katawan niya sa loob ng ref.. pagkakita ng kapatid ko sa kanya... "Mama, gus-to ko to.. la-mig eh..." sus hindi niya nakayanan ang summer heat... nagpalamig sa ref..
kainis sukatan na naman ng school uniform this monday and tuesday.. hayyy.. i promised myself to lose more pounds para naman mas ok ang bagong uniform sa akin.. sus! di na umabot... well.. wag na sana pa madagdagan pa para hindi na kailangan pang ipa-repair.. hehehe...
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Tot and I did the Bisita Iglesia or Stations of the Cross last Thursday in observing the LEnten Season. We visited 14 churches within the ever busy but beautiful Manila. We met at around 7 am and with our list of 14 churches and a liter of water, we headed to Intramuros by a jeepney. Our original plan was to start with Manila Cathedral a the first station then San Agustin. However, there was a mass at the Manila Cathedral when we arrived. The lady marshals did not allow us to go around and look for the first station. Perhaps she thought we were just loittering around. The church was really jam-packed. I saw some people seated on the floor. So we headed to San Agustin Church to do the first station and from there, work on with the rest of the 13 churches.
We visited the following churches for the Station of the Cross.
1. San Agustin Church
2. Sta. Cruz Church
3. Quiapo Church
4. Basilica de San Sebastian
5. San Miguel Archangel within the Malacanang area
6. St . Jude also within the Malacanang area
7. San Beda Church in Mendiola
8. St. Francis de Assisi in Bustillos
9. Loreto Church, the one-step-away church (literally) from St. Francis de Assissi
10. the UST Chapel/Church
11. a church in Calamba Street
12. San Jose de Manuguit Church
13. San Roque Church in Blumentritt
14. Espiritu Santo Church in Tayuman
That was 14 churches to complere the Station of the Cross. It was the first time that I visited 14 churches. when I was younger, my sisters and I would visit seven churches and do two Stations of the Cross in every church. in all.
Tot and I might have reached as far as Our Lady of Lourdes and Santa Teresita Church in Quezon City if didn’t remember about the twin churches in Legarda area. We also did our station at the nearby kikiam and squid ball stand near St. Jude Church and Wendy’s along Dapitan for lunch.
We enjoyed the walk not only as part of our exercise regimen but more importantly as our religious obligation as a Catholic. We took the chance to spend more time with each other, bonding ‘ba?, since we were busy for the past weeks with our own things. I was busy with work because of webhost testing and with school because of final exams and requirements to submit. Tot was also busy when realtives from abroad came to visit.
Last Sunday, Tot and I went for a wqalk along Baywalk so we can also attend the mass in Malate Church since it was Palm Sunday. It is really a small world. The couple we saw last Sunday in that area with their cute puppy was the same couple we saw in one of the churches we visited last Thursday. One of them recognized us too when she smiled on us.
Until now i can't help but smile whenever I am reminded by these puppies we saw last Sunday. There are cute little bulldogs in Baywalk. They were jogging along with their owner and they were ahead of these two BIG pitbulls. I thought it was the pitbulls. Sabi ko kay Tot, "Grabe naman makahingal ang mga pitbulls na iyon." Then Tot corrected me, "Hindi sila yun ah.. yung mga bulldog puppies iyon." "Ha!?" I can't belived it so I observed the pitbulls anf the bulldog puppies. Hehehehe.. Sila nga... ang kyut nila sobra... I really can't imagine a how those little cute bulldog puppies can produce that hingal sound.
Finally the semester is over!!! But it was really a pain in the ass before we can call it a semester. Well buti na lang i enjoyed doing this artsy-crafty portfolio where i got a perfect points. I will scan or take a picture of what I did so I can share it with you. I tried leaves painting on every page of it instead of using a plain bond paper only. Then i also used dried flowers and leaves to decorate the cover... then i used strings to hold the pages and its cover... by the way, i used the colored green as its motif since i used plants in it.
Naku, come third week of April, school time again for me. I will spend my morning at school, and the rest of the day at work. That was the arrangement my immediate superior and I agreed upon. She gave me that suggestion instead of filing a two-week leave. Better I guess.
Kaya if ever mapansin po ninyong hindi ako nakakapag-update ng aking blog kahit man lang minsan sa isang linggo, please rush to the nearby emergency room to check on me. hehehehe
Friday, March 25, 2005
will tell you more about what is happening to me in the past few days next time i blog...
Friday, March 18, 2005
heto ka na naman. bakit ba ganun? pilit kong iwinawaksi ka sa aking isipan pero heto't nagbabalik ka sa aking pintuan. siguro ako na rin ang sasagot sa aking tanong. nararamdaman mo na ba ng kailangan na kitang muli? ang galing naman ng iyong tenga. narinig mo ako kahit ganoon kang kalayo mula sa akin? oo nga pala, mas malakas ang pandinig ng puso mo. dinig na dinig niya ang bawat pintig ng puso ko, ng damdamin ko.. ng kaibuturan ng aking saloobin.
kilala mo naman ako di ba? kahit alam kong may iba nang sinasabi ang puso ko na kabaligtaran ng sinasabi ng utak ko o di naman kaya ay may ibinubulong ang puso ko sa isip ko, wala pa akong paki. matigas ba ulo ko? o umaasa akong magiging okay ang lahat?
teka, sigurado ka na ba sa gusto mong mangyari? gagawin mo rin ba ang ginawa mo dati? mag-isip ka muna nang makailang beses... ako rin mag-iisip.. tapos saka tayo ulit magkita. pero sana huwag naman sa lalong madaling panahon.
Monday, March 14, 2005
makakatulog na naman ako
nang mas matagal,
ma-e-enjoy ko ang weekends ko
may matitipid akong pera
dahil walang nang gastos pag Sabado
sa loob ng linggong ito
subsob ang ulo ko sa pag-aaral
sunog ang kilay ko sa reviews
pasmado ang mga kamay ko
sa pagtipa ng keyboard
at paghawak sa bolpen.
sana bago lumipas ang linggong ito
normal na ang koneksyon ng Internet sa aming opisina
mahirap maghabol ng trabaho lalo't natambak na lahat.
pwede bang laktawan na lang ang linggong ito?
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Can I consider this semester as more productive or should I say more demanding?
Now reviewers must be prepared for the final examinations. We will be having finals in both subjects. I have this feeling that one of the professors will give witty questions... I think it is in her personality.
I am already done with the storyline of my first novel. I hope to get it done after three months. I really want to do it... ala lang.. feel ko lang.. hehehehe....
happy weekend everyone!!!!!
Thursday, March 10, 2005
how can i if something has been bugging me? i feel so restless and worrisome... damn it! for how many times i have told myself to just leave it alone and set myself free from anything that has anything to do with it. but here I am.. going nuts over it..
lagi na lang bang ganun? nakakapagod na.. ayaw ko na... tama na.. hanggang dito na lang ang lahat...
Saturday, March 5, 2005
arrrggghhh!!!!!!! that very moment i decided to have a new lesson plan for my micro-teaching. I also decided not to submit it to her for checking. So when I got home that Saturday afternoon, I started doing my lesson plan. When I presented that lesson plan earlier before the class, I was nervous since I know for a fact that I am not sure if I prepared a good lesson plan and I was scared if I would be able to do the teaching demonstration well.
I am thankful that my ever cooperative and helpful classmates really participated during the demonstration... I did it! Well, my professor had some remarks but she said my presentation was really good. My learning objectives were well-defined and my teaching technique was good too. Haayyy... may nasabi rin siyang tama sa wakas... or was it me only?
Come March 12, I have to submit a module for EDUC9. My classmate who's doing a peer evaluation to my module said I prepared a very good module... We discussed about it after classes. I have to evaluate her module. Sorry if you think I am bragging too much about these things.. It is just that I feel better when I know that I am doing right things right.. hehehe speaking of being efficient and effective at the same time...
Aside from the module, we have to submit a portfolio in EDUC4 containing our reflection paper. Nope, not a single reflection paper but I am talking here about reflection paperssssss. one papaer for every meeting we have in the class.. can u beat that?! that portfolio is 30% of our grade in EDUC4....
So first thing first.. finish module first then continue the reflection paper....
Wednesday, March 2, 2005
masahol pa sa baradong lababo ang aking utak sa kakaisip kung ano ba ang uunahin kong tapusin. mag-praktis ba para sa micro-teaching ko? i-finalize ang module ko? tapusin ang portfolio ko? ano ba talaga?
aarrgghhh.. sabayan pa ng load sa opis... waaaahhh.....
minsan o kadalasan na ba? kinatutulugan ko na lang ang pagmumuni-muni kung ano ang uunahin ko...
sa awa ng Diyos, tapos ko na ang lesson plan na gagamitin ko para sa micro-teaching ko. ngayong gabi, aayusin ko na lang yung mga gagamitin ko for Saturday. yup! sa Sabadona sya...
tapos, i-finalize ko na ang module ko. oo nga pala, dapat ko palang i-meet ang klasmate ko para makipagpalitan ng module... kailangan kasi na i-evaluate niya ang module ko. ako rin ang mag-evaluate ng module niya. pero until now, di pa kami decided kung kailan kami magpapalitan. hehehe... tapos kailangan din palang i-testing ang module na iyon sa tatlong Grade 6 pupils.... hhhmm.. sa sabado na lang yan ng gabi.
Next ko na lang pag-igihan ang paggawa ng portfolio ko. Kung bakit ba naman kasi kailangang gawan ng reflection paper kada araw na mag-meet sa subject na iyon eh.
Saturday, February 26, 2005
At last, I am through with the module. I just hope that our EDUC9 professor will like it. I must be prepared for the micro-teaching in EDUC 4. I am scheduled on the 5th of March. And of course, the portfolio for EDUC 4 too. God! I have to finish the reflection paper for that.
Tonton likes Tot. Whenever I am home, he will always ask me to call Tot's house so they can talk over the phone. Just early this evening, Tot called me on the phone but I missed it. Tonton was in our house so he talked with Tot. You know what he did? He sang to Tot... His classic Happy Birthday song, and the Let-the-Love-begin and Wag-na-wag-mong- Sasabihin Medley. He knows Tot's name, too. He often asks me "Tot," and I have to explain to him that Tot is working so they cannot play together. By the way, he is will be two this March 9.
Thanks heaven, my dear foster son is okay now. He didn't go to school last week because he's sick, tonsilities and over fatigue. I rushed home from the office last Thursday because my mother called me to be home early. So instead of enjoying the night with my officemates, I was home and attending to his needs. My mother told me that he was crying that morning and calling out my name. He asked my mother to give me, anyway. He's extra sweet when he's sick. I hope he stays the same when he is sound and healthy.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
heal the wound in your heart
erase the frown on your face
let me hold your hands
trace your wet cheeks
kiss your widow's peak
i'll wrap you in my arms
close your eyes
rest your heart
hug me tight
everything will be fine
just like in the past,
this too shall pass
Thursday, February 17, 2005
napansin ko ang babae sa aking tapat.. nakatingin sa akin... siguro nasa isip niya na "sana nakita mo yan bago ka lumabas ng bahay para naayos mo na agad bago pa man din maging ganyan..." yung mama na katabi ko, nakatitig din sa mga daliri ko, siguro sabi niya, "alam mo na naman na magkakaganyan yang nail polish mo, pero bakit hindi mo inagapan?"
parang ganyan din sa buhay natin.. may mga pangyayari na alam na nating magaganap pero nagbale-wala tayo. lagi nating iniisip na we are in control and we know what we are doing... pero laging huli na kung ma-realize natin na we are on the edge and losing our control... hindi na natin naaagapan kasi nga sobra tayong tiwala sa sarili natin eh... tiwala tayo na sobrang galing ng nail polish natin at aabutin pa ng taon bago ito mabura... pero hindi pala...
i had my nails done last night by my suking manikurista. siya lang ang nakasundo ng mga kuko ko kaya sa kanya lang ako lagi nagpapa-manicure. rarely i have my appointment with her on weekends since i usually spend my sundays for other things i have to do if i do not have to go to Tot's house. she lives a few houses away and i am glad she patiently waits for me at night whenever i ask her to make my nails.
last night before the manicure session, i passed by this new parlor on my way home. i had to have a hot oil treatment. i felt sad for my hair and i guess it needed more TLC. because of my sked, it is usually a wash-and-wear type of hair though it is considerably long. i entered the parlor at around 6 pm.. there are lots of customers... when i stepped out of it, it is exactly 7:45. huh! more than an hour of hot oil treatment.. hehehe.. hindi naman ganoon ka-damaged ang aking hair... they attended to me right away but the steaming machine was not yet available so i had to wait for my turn. well that was a consolation for me since i was able to nap for more than an hour while having my hair pampered....
i was thinking last night if the guy giving me some pleasure (by treating my hair) was gay or straight one or straight-acting one... he looked so straight to me... anyway, but looks are deceiving.... nope, i do not like him.... na-puzzled lang ako...
Lord, I pray that You help me with my module... I am totally at lost and dunno where to start...
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Excuse my words, pero sa mga gumawa nito,ang sarap ninyong talupan ng balat at pigaan ng calamansi. HMP!
walang lasa ang kinakain kong oatmeal... waaaaa... walang asukal... walang gatas... walang lasa.. walang wenta ang nagluto.. ako pala iyon...:-)
ang hirap talaga mag-diet... huhuhuhu....
Monday, February 14, 2005
A couple of years ago, a younger friend asked to help her out with her wedding planning. Since her older sisters were not here in the country, the ate in me extended my best help to her for free. From planning and research for her gown, invitation, give-aways, and make up, I saw her through. I even transported the flowers needed on her wedding from Manila to their province in the wee hour of night. It was all worth. I saw how happy she was. And many were stunned with her wedding. I was glad everything turned out right.
I was supposed to have my own wedding four years ago. I dreamt of a perfect wedding for me. But nothing materialized. I got scared; not because of the responsibilities that go with it afterwards. But I was scared to spend the rest of my life with that person. He scared me away. He had so many plans for us. He decided already where we would be staying, what we would do with our money, how many children we will have. It was all his decisions. He never cared to consult me. He loved me so much that he scared me away. During those times, I was not sure if I really love him. I got confused and frightened at the same time.
I backed out. I told him I could not marry him. I know no apologies or explanations can ease the pain and humiliation I caused him. I had to be honest with him and with myself. My life was at stake then. My parents pitied me so much that they had to protect me. I hid myself away from that guy. It came to the point where I had to tell him I married another guy so he would stop pestering me.
Those were the years. Things are a lot different now. That guy is already married. A year after I backed out from his wedding plans, he called my mother to let me know that he married a girl from his place. I was relieved. The guilty me was relieved to know that he is now happy and at peace; and I freed myself from guilt of leaving him and running away fromhis promises.
Now I am no longer scared to spend the rest of my life with this very special person. But who knows if the universe will really conspire with us. I am only hoping for the best but the pragmatic me will be satisfied with what I have on hand. With God's guidance, in His time, this promise ring I wear might be doubled with an engagement ring or an eternity ring soon.... but only Him could tell....
Currently reading the five people you meet in heaven
Thursday, February 10, 2005
pansin ko na medyo napapadalas ang pag-update ko ng blog ko. napapansin tuloy na hindi ako busy. hehehe...wala lang..lately kasi bigla na lang ako nagigising sa madaliang araw. wala namang ibang magawa at makausap. tamad naman akong mag-chat. so eto na lang ang ginagawa ko. dapat ata ang gawin ko at pagkaabalahan eh ang mga school requirements ko. oo nga, pero ala pa akong gana eh... would you believe that even while doing other things, i am starting to compose what i will do with my school requirements? yung module...di ko pa rin tapos.. yung mga reflection paper, di ko pa rin tapos.. pero yung detailed lesson plan ko, tapos ko na... gusto ko nang matapos...hehehe
Tuesday, February 8, 2005
Whew! I was totally peeved with my menstrual cramps yesterday. Unlike with previous months, the first day of my monthly flow this time was really painful. I was not sure what's the reason but it was totally different.
I remembered my first menstruation. I felt pain for two days and I was totally bedridden. So glad that it happened on a school break when I was in fifth grade so I didn't miss any classes.
After a good sleep and a warm bath, now I am back on my toes. I am craving for chocolates...
The church wedding of Cris, Tonet's youngest sis, will be on Saturday. Toni asked Alene and I to host the wedding reception. DRESS CODE: long gown!!!! OMG! I am not one of those who's comfortable with gowns... never... Tot suggested that I wear a dress, instead. whoaaaattttt..... Anything to be considered formal but not as formal as long gown. Sayang sana may swimwear competition. Pasok pa ako siguro... bwaaaaahahahaha... TOINK!!!
But I am thinking of wearing a pair of black pants, pink sleeveless tops, cover my pata tim arms with a balck shawl and of course, my ever reliable boots.... hay... I realized, I do not have any girl shoes in my rack... all boys' shoes and slippers... ang hirap!. kakahiya kay Tonet pag hindi ako sumipot eh.
Tuesday, February 1, 2005
last night, tot and i had dinner at tokyo tokyo. we had our favorite sumo pork tonkatsu. i was not as satisfied as i used to in the past. i had to convince myself that it is the same pork tonkatsu. but when i got hom, i just threw it up. eeewwww....
i am not bulimic.... let me get that straight... perhaps, SBD did a great change with my taste buds... and i guess i will look at it on a brighter side. i can lose weight, i can have a better-looking skin... i can live longer... more animal lives will be saved....
hhayyy... perhaps this is just one of those moments...
When i was looking at tot earlier while we were having dinner, a part of me wants to kiss and hug the person i am having dinner with. Tot looks nice with the new eyeglasses... I know awkward ang feeling nya dahil nagsisimula pa lang siyang magsalamin. Ika nga kung kailan sya tumanda saka pa nangailangang magsalamin.
at last with the guidance of Michz, i was able to install my new soundcard. scared and hesitant to do it first, i was able to do so... it is better to surf the net or work on my PC with a music in the background.. a lot better...
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Of course, her dear ate said Yes.. I hope to learn to say No in the future. Painting chores are tasking and dangerous to my Pinoy nose. It took me three weeks to complete the painting since I had to stop when I needed to go to Cebu to attend a seminar for four days. Then the chores had to compete with school and work and lovelife. hehehe......
But gladly it turned out fine. I am really happy about it. My next assignment will be my room then the rooms upstairs (third floor). As early as now, I am thinking of better color combination. I liking mixing colors. I have been doing it since college whenever we have to do some stage shows. I preferred to work off stage..
Currently busy with coloring books
Friday, January 28, 2005
I am not in my uniform today. I just don't feel like being one with the rest today. Aside from the fact that I do not like today uniform because of its color, fabric and style, I do not feel to properly dress up. Can it be considered a Friday sickness? Perhaps, a form of it...
Now it is confirmed, younger sis' 2nd child is a girl...YIPEEE!!!!! After four nephews, I would love to buy those cute little pink dress for our little Aloudia. We would be glad to welcome her in this world come May... I am so excited... mas masarap kasi bihisan ang batang babae eh... alam mo yun..ang daming cute na damit.. yung mga colorful na kikay clothes plus those accessories... hehehe... basta i am excited
currently reading: Eleven Minutes
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Monday, January 24, 2005
after reading scout's blog, i realized that i haven't made any new year's resolution for 2005. a new year's resolution? not really... i just realized that i do not have any plans to pursue this year yet... i guess it is being normal to have one at least. and at least to encourage me to attain a goal whether it is "big-time" or not...
WHAT DO I WANT TO DO THIS 2005?
- Learn how to play the guitar. At least memorize one or two songs...
- Finish all units required for a teaching program certificate. Board exam is scheduled this August and I am eager to take and pass it then pursue Special Education Teaching Certificate
- Read more books/e-books. I am done with four Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code, Angels and Demons, Digital Fortress, The Deception Point (e-books). I am starting with Tuesdays with Morrie (e-book). I still have to finish Coehlo's Eleven Minutes (hardcopy). I am now reading Last Wish (Betty Rollin)
- Finish my pending cross stitch patterns. I still have three to finish - two dolphin patterns and a rabbit pattern.
- Paint my room. Perhaps this summer. but actually this is least of my concern unless there is a helpful soul who will volunteer to paint my room for free.. Let me see those hands, please
- Study, whether in a training center or through tutorial, some computer troubleshooting. I badly need this one... I have my soundcard already but I do not know how to install the hardware.
- Focus more on my writing. I have so many ideas but i find no time to put them on a paper or perhaps on this space. So when in the future, Mark of Bembang.com asked for a piece, I have lots to contribute... hehehe....
- Get serious with SBD. Be disciplined enough to succeed with my own version of southbeach diet... i badly need to lose more weight!!!!!!!!!
- Get debt-free! Oh yeah, this is difficult to do. But at least to be able to manage my finances and settle my financial obligations is a big feather on my cap. Anyway, I am glad that slowly I have been attending into this... ika nga eh paunti-unti)
- Buy a new polish. AND THAT IS TONIGHT!!!
Sunday, January 23, 2005
At last, I am through with my assigned reports in my two subjects for this semester. Yup, sabay ang schedule nila! Actually I was supposed to deliver my reports last Saturday, however my professors were too enthusiatic to be stopped from their sharing... hehehe... I came so prepared last Saturday that I was not able to focus n my review for our mid-term exam (Educ 104). Just the same, I am glad I made it....
Now I have to start attending to the final requirements of the two subjects.. a module and a portfolio plus we have to do micro-teaching individually infront of the class... hehehe.. i still do not have any topic for the module on our curriculum development subject... On the other hand, the lesson plan we prepared individually would be the same one that we are going to use for our micro-teaching... One semester more and I am done with this... oooppss.. review and board exam pa pala... sus! mahirap talaga ang mag-career shift...
Thursday, January 20, 2005
to ask again kung bakit siya umiyak, instead of answering me directly, nag-text siya...
Wen she luks at me
I knw d girl c tings
Nbody else cn c
ol d secrets fears inside
nd ol d emptinesI hyd
She luks n2 my soul
lyk nbody else
And she dsn't judge the bu**h
She just takes me as I am
Sa akin lang daw siya nagiging totoo.. kung anong klase siyang tao.. yung totoo niyang pagkatao na hindi niya maipakita sa iba... Alam niya na hindi ko siya huhusgahan kung ano sya dahil tanggap ko kung ano siya... Hindi ako napakabait na tao.. Hindi rin naman ako napakasalbahe... Pero i do my best na maintindihan ko ang lahat ng nangyayari... pero dumarating ang punto na palpak din ako... minsan aminado ako.. minsan matindi ang defense mechanism ko... Pero kahit ano pa siya, narito ako para sa kanya...
Come what may, she believes
And that faith is something
I've never known before
Come what may, she loves me
And that love has helped me open a door
Making me love myself a little more
Kapag magkasama kami, alam kong at ease siya. Kasi nagiging totoo siya sa sarili niya. Hindi na niya ikinukubli ang sarili niya... Sumpungin man siya, maiintindihan ko. May sarili man siyang mundo, mauunawaan ko. Siguro ganoon ako sa kanya...
Bakit? Tinatanong pa ba iyon?
When I turn away
She knows those are the times
There's nothing she can say
Nothing that anyone can do
And so she lets me live it trough
And when I'm in my darkest hours of uncertainty
She just simply lets me be
And goes right on loving me
Alam mo nasa punto ka na naguguluhan kung ano ba ang gusto mong gawin.... sabi mo nga kung alam mo lang at kung kaya mong gawin kung ano ang tama, nagawa mo na matagal na. Pero alam mo naman kung ano ang tama at kung ano ang dapat. May buhay ka na dapat harapin... yung buhay na gusto nila para sa iyo na gusto mo rin matupad para naman matulungan mo na ang mga gusto mong matulungan. Sige lang, nasa iyo ang panahon para mag-isip... Darating din naman ang araw na magkakausap tayo at mismo sa harap mo uulitin ko ang mga nasabi ko na
sa iyo dati pa.
Come what may, she believes
And that faith is something
I've never known before
Come what may, she loves me
And that love has helped me open a door
Making me love myself a little more
And when it seems my dreams
Have all slipped through my fingers
When they just can't be found
I turn around and there they are
Shining in her eyes
Ilang beses ko na ba sinabi sa iyo, narito lang ako... Ilang beses na ba tayo pumalpak? Ilang beses na rin tayo bumangon? basta narito lang ako, hindi kita ipamimigay... hindi kita ipapaagaw...
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
Name : F............ E..... N...
Address : BROOKLYN NY
Profession : PHYSICAL THERAPY
License No: 026786
Date of Licensure : 12/17/04
Additional Qualification : Not applicable in this profession
Status : REGISTERED
Registered through last day of : 11/07
After hibernating for sometime, finally I saw him online... I can't remember when was the last time we exchanged new things about ourselves. We have been busy with work and school. He is getting a second degree while I am doing some post-grad stuff as a preparation for a career shift. He was my classmate in high school who turned to be my bestfriend. I am comfotable with him.
He asked me to search for his name on the Internet... I do not have any idea why he making that request... hehehe.. Eventually, he wanted to tell me that he already passed the PT state board of NY.. and his name is on the list of PT professionals in the Big Apple.. Gosh, I am so proud of him... So proud of him... For you , I wish all the best... Pero teka, di ba bago ka pumunta dyan sa US sabi mo pakakasalan mo kami ni Tonet para magkaroon din kami ng green card? hehehe.. Do not worry, may divorce naman eh.. hehehe